"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish He didn't trust me so much"
Webster defines trust as, "dependence on something future or contingent."
I've been thinking a lot about "trust" lately. What exactly does that really mean? I have to be honest, before I looked up what Webster had to say, in my mind I defined it as this: to wholeheartedly believe that something or someone is who or what they perceive to be. Would you agree with that statement? Looking at the real definition I have to disagree with my thought process. I love the way Webster defines it-dependence...thats a huge word. To depend means life altering. Think about it; if you depend on someone to follow through with something, and they don't, it affects your life. Whether it be small or big, it affects your life.
For years, we have been taught to put our trust in God-to depend on Him if you will. And throughout my life I have done so, or at least tried my very best to. Putting your trust in God is a very easy thing to do...when things are easy. Its when things start to get "out of our control" that trusting becomes a difficult task to accomplish. Its really quite stupid if you think about it. Why is it so hard to trust God when you KNOW it is out of your control?? I hate that!!!
Without going into much detail, I am being faced with a circumstance that is clearly out of my control! I literally have no choice but to Trust in Him. I think its interesting when God decides to put something in your life that makes you realize how little control you actually have. Think about it; you wake up one morning and everything is great! You go about your day like you do everyday only to wake up the next morning and have your whole world turned upside down...or so you think(things always seem worse when you're in the middle vs. when its all over). Sometimes I wonder if God has a timeline. "lets see here...I haven't thrown anything Lindsays way in a while to make her really trust Me." haha I know He doesn't have this...but it feels this way at times.
All of this rambling to say...I could use some prayer. This verse is the only thing getting me through this circumstance right now:
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways,
submit to Him
and He will make your paths straight."